Can you believe it's been a full decade already since I wrote this, thus launching this blog upon the world?
Back then I was focused on putting together scripts for a TV project called Timespotters. I was a naive 16 year old, who since then you've seen transform into the guy that I am today. Reading back over previous posts (and therefore, my own personal history) makes for a fascinating experience - although I do frequently cringe at lots of what I've said!
Beyond a celebratory "hip-hip-hooray!" I don't have much more to add. Thanks for sticking with me, and reading over the years. It means the world to me that I have an audience (no matter how small) that remains loyal and interested in what I have to say.
(By the way... Technically, I'm not cheating. This was written in December 2015 - and merely scheduled to be published today, so doesn't betray the promise I made not to blog for the entirety of the new year! Ha!)
I'd recorded a video for this. But do you know? I watched it back, and just thought that it wasn't right.
I've wanted to go back and re-do the video, but unfortunately I've been very unwell and I don't think my voice is up to the challenge! We return to the format used previously (2007 (Part One), 2007 (Part Two); 2011; 2013).
2015 has been a bit of a peculiar year. I was thinking today just how long it seems to have been. Honestly, it's as if it's just gone on and on. Maybe that's because I broke my usual routines - by first of all resigning, that going off and doing a number of new experiences?
I've had ups and downs, but I think overall these last 12 months even out as a good, solid year. I mean look at what I've accomplished:
- Finally fulfilling my ambition to leave the cinema role.
- Completing that Darkened Avenue saga, that I started waaaaaay back in 2006.
- Making Self 2 a.k.a. Fellow (at last!!)
- Equally, making Lasagne
- Being in love
- Spending summer with my family, and getting to see my nieces/nephews grow up
- Watching 70 new, quality films
- Spending Christmas at home
How is this a bad way of being?!
Yes, some things didn't work out. I still haven't cracked getting a job in TV or Film, for example. But you know, there's no point dwelling - and besides, my life is a lot better than others' in this world. I have a lot to be grateful and happy for.
I don't need to go on! I've put my point across, and all that's left to say is a Happy New Year. I hope 2016 is the year for you, and your loved ones.
I'm ill. Medicated. Possibly a little delirious (I can't be sure).
This should be fun.
The end of the year is nigh,
I decide to finish on a high...
(Or give it a damn hard try!)
That's literally all I came up with, before the boring part of my brain switched on, my imagination switched off... and, well, normal service resumed:
That Resolute Desk: Sick Man's Silence
A filming day!
Yeah - despite my sickness, and obvious need for bed rest, I decided I had to make one last ditch attempt at filming a That Resolute Desk sequence for 2015. You might remember as the year started, I was attempting a project called Six of One, that eventually I scrapped. This short, 90 second bit was aimed as a replacement - catching up with my character Jarvis O'Hara (after featuring in 2012/3/4 videos).
I don't know if anything I shot is good, or if it'll make an interesting scene. We'll see. I'm not over thinking it. Que sera sera and all that.
Work is tough without a voice. Thanks to Kathryn and Michelle, who bought me some medication over 12 months ago - which, luckily I'd saved, and used now. The pills and spray were a massive relief and really helped.
I wrote a special something before: A 10th anniversary blog post. It won't go live until January (when I'm in the midst of my blogging exile) - so you'll just have to wait until then to read it! But, interesting it'll end up being my 600th blog post... and look, I just crossed 10000 visitors!
At work today my voice kept disappearing on me as I strained to talk to customers, and everything was spinning in several directions. I have man flu. I'm calling it now.
I've spent the last few weeks thinking about what sort of year I want 2016 to be. Entering 2015, I wanted to complete lots of unfinished business. I largely succeeded - making both Lasagne and Fellow at last, plus leaving my job at Vue/moving out of my old room in Shepherds Bush. So... going into the new year I'll spin this year's resolution on its head. Whereas the last 12 months were about ending existing projects... I want 2016 to be about beginning entirely new things.
Marvel comics have recently relaunched their books under the banner "all new, all different". I like that, and I'm stealing it for my new year motto!
Of course, for new things to exist/things to be "all different" I have to draw a line under certain practices. One of these includes my iPod. It's time to retire the device. I've had it for 8 years now, and the routine of putting it in my ears every commute has become a little tiresome.
Then there's Facebook. I hardly use it any more anyway, but it's time I log out for the year. Now, I'm not deleting my page - and I will likely return to it in 2017 - but I can't keep refreshing the page, checking desperately for updates. What's the point? I'm going to continue my new adventures, of going out and actually socialising with people in person.
Finally, for now, there's Blogger. I know, I know - I've threatened to leave these pages before. Many times! But now, it feels right to rest the blog for the duration of the 2016 year. I need some time away from pouring my heart and soul out every day. I think I spend too long reflecting on what has happened, that I end up dwelling on facts - which is obviously not at all healthy. I also quite like the idea of just going out and living for a while - not spending my time storing events or information away, ready to use in these writings at a later date. I'll continue to write on these pages until New Year's Eve - after which, barring celebrating the blog's 10th birthday in January, you won't hear from me on here for a while.
What new things am I going to do, I hear you ask? Well... actually, no. I'm not going to tell you. Let's not cement those plans, and leave things as open as possible. Just know that I'll be doing/trying new things in 2016, that if successful will leave me a greater human being.
Christmas was hard. For the first time in weeks I've been thinking about the ex again. You have no idea how hard it was *not* messaging her a "Merry Christmas".