Growing up, I was that awkward kid you'd usually see sat in the corner of the room whilst the party carried on around him. I can't remember how many times I just... didn't bother. That's because parties scare me - and the people attending them, even more so, because they can do something well which I'm completely and utterly rubbish at: Socialise.
That's why I sit in the corner and avoid all contact with others, because I've grown to accept and appreciate the company of myself, as a bit of a loner. Of course, I'd love to be able to do more with people - mix and mingle in, but I just don't have it in me.
When I try, words fail me and I end up muttering something either incomprehensible, or downright embarrassing. It's even worse when I talk to girls. So I've taught myself to steer clear of it all, by keeping my social skills to a minimum.
Of course, I'm getting better at it, by going out with friends at work and learning those vital social skills, but to be frank I'm still a little rubbish at it! If the conversation steers away from my two comfort zones (that's work, and TV/Film) I get lost, and have no idea what to say. Football? Erm... they kick a ball around, right? Girls? Uh... I'm single - let's not go there. Most other subjects? Right on over my head.
Somehow I think I need to sharpen those social skills of mine - I just don't know how. Advice, anybody? I've tried the method of just throwing myself into the conversation, no matter what it concerns, but then I end up discussing something I know nothing about and look the fool. Oh, and how the others judge me for it! So, yeah... help!
It'd be ideal one day just to sit down, and talk to my closest friends for hours on end about something different you know, save the usual stories or gossip.
My sister has a new puppy! It's a crossbreed of (get this!) Jack Russell and a Chihuahua. She's named it Lucy, and at 8 weeks old it's incredibly cute! I'll try and get some pictures and put them up here for the world to see!
Man, I love dogs. One day when I have a place of my own, I'm going to go out and buy myself one. I just love how friendly and loyal they are. They're like an extended member of the family; who never judges you, or shows you anything but love.
I wish more people in my life could be like that, honestly I do.